He'd put bets on him coming here being his first mistake too, but at least one of these two can actually be corrected. He just needed to have a few more weeks of frozen toes before he considers succumbing to Canada's cold. It was a matter of pride.. and style. At least his calf length wool jacket was more than useful.
He might not know that the growl he's listening to is the Earp's truck specifically yet, but it was loud, it was out front and it sounded too much like home for his comfort. He only turns around expectantly when he hears the footsteps, and watches Wynonna spot him, process him, and reject his everything inside a few heartbeats.
"Not one for hospitality, is she."
The Sheriff goes to open his mouth, to answer either Raylan or Wynonna, but Raylan lifts a hand and shakes his head as he heads for the door, stopping only to set his coffee on the desk Randy was sitting in front of.
"Let me take a shot at it." He could see the relief and amusement on the Sheriff's face. Clearly, Randy knew that it wasn't going to go as well as Raylan hoped, no matter what he did. In truth, he did too but that wasn't going to stop him from trying. You miss all the shots you don't take and he did understand that this was a sensitive situation. Raylan walks out into the hall after her and calls a "Ms. Earp?" as his long legs start covering distance. A too reasonable tone, polite, but one underlaced with twenty years of assumed authority. She was free to ignore it.
That didn't mean she'd escape it. He fully intended to follow after her until she stopped or she drove away, and even that wouldn't deter him.
The sound of bootheels on linoleum, annoyingly, is going the wrong direction, and she's wheeling around to confront him by the time his Ms Earp? hits the air. "What part of nope was I unclear about?"
She's never been good at standing her ground when she could be pushing in, and she comes back down the hall at a faster clip than when she left, blue-grey eyes snapping, the line of her jaw tight. "You need to pack up and get out. The last thing we need is some Black Badge dick showing up thinking he can call the shots. Been there, done that, got the off-brand knock-off t-shirt."
Welcome to 'team shut up and do what he says, she'd told Waverly, back at the beginning, and it hits all over again like a fist landing abruptly in her gut. Black Badge got Dolls killed. They can fuck themselves sideways with all their supernatural totems; they can be demon chow, for all she cares. She glares up at the man, tall and lanky and annoyingly mild.
She sure had some fire in her soul, something Raylan could appreciate on a base level, momentarily grateful for his upbringing and experience with strong, opinionated women. He was as friendly neutral as he could be, knowing all the while he was only going to piss her off more by virtue of his answer. It was better than being indifferent and wiser than matching her level of self-assertion.
"We need to talk," he says with a slight smile of politeness once she finishes, continuing with a gesture of his long fingers. "And it ain't gotta be here, and it ain't gotta be now, but we need to talk either way. I'm afraid I can't promise to not follow you - and I think you know why."
He had to be clear about Dolls, about where Black Badge stood with a death of one of its men and where they all stood against the fight on Demons and dark atrocities making its way into their world to wreck havoc on innocent people.
"Our fight ain't done here, Ms Earp. I think you know that better than anyone."
A few more steps is all it takes, and she's inches from him now, glaring up into his face, so angry that it never crosses her mind that he might see more than her anger, that he might see the heartbreak that's fueling it, desperate and desolate. She's not even thirty yet, but any youth in her eyes is dark and wounded and flashing with pain. "Let me tell you what I know, Marshal. I know this fight isn't over. And I know it's my fight, not yours."
She stares up at him, furious as a summer storm. "I didn't ask for Black Badge to send you. I don't want anything from them, and I don't want anything from you. I think you should get the hell out of here before you become the next costly mistake for them."
But even as she rages at him, she knows: there's no getting rid of him. If he goes, another one will come. Black Badge doesn't give a shit about Purgatory, or Dolls, or her, but the'll keep coming anyway.
Women were usually angry about something specific. Men tended to just be Angry, to be cruel, to take out their feelings on the world around them like cowards and boys, but women always had a reason. It was something he'd learned before he joined Black Badge but even still, it applied. So it wasn't hard to see the heartbreak behind that fury. Nor was it hard to see how very much Wynonna needed a hug.
He hoped she had someone that might give her what she needed. But Raylan Givens had seen a lotta people angry, a lotta women furious in their righteousness and correctness about the way the would should be, to let her lash against him with all the edge her voice could muster.
He could shoulder that.
"I know what I signed up for." The statement was short and firm, not unkind but in no way bending to the winds of her anger as he met her gaze with only slightly wider eyes; the unmovable mountain. There was no part about it that he didn't mean. Death was always going to come to them. One way or the other.
"And so did Dolls. This is our fight. Not just yours and not just Black Badges. It ain't about either of us; it's about them. Everyone else who doesn't know this shit exists, everyone else who's got a bit of peace we're never gonna know."
It was ugly and might be taken as a jabbing statement, the kind of verbal slap that someone might use to calm down someone who was freaking out - hell, he wouldn't be surprised if he got hit for it, she looked like the type - but it was the softest hard truth they had on hand. He softens himself a little, edges rounding over to something that most people would find more reassuring.
"It's a fight none of us should be takin' on alone if we hope to stay on top of it."
She pales at the hard words, the tendons standing out in her neck for a moment before she narrows her eyes at him once again, her lips thinning. "You really think Black Badge gives a shit about the fight? About anyone? About you?"
She can't help it; the memories come unbidden. Dolls, smiling at her from the hillside above the Homestead. Dolls, curled at her back in her bed, promising she isn't alone. Dolls, lying still and cold on the frozen earth. "Demons didn't kill Dolls. Black Badge did. And they'll kill you, too, if they fucking feel like it."
The worst part of this all is that— he's right. And Dolls might have said the same thing, once upon a time, before he looked at her at that party, something soft and undefinable in his eyes, and said screw 'em, I need you. She misses him like she'd miss her ribs, or her lungs. Everything feels wrong, everything hurts, everything is so much harder without him.
Which is why this new Marshal, Givens, isn't wrong. She can't do this alone. She can't do it without Black Badge. She already knows that when she turns around again, he'll be coming right along with her to the office. All she can think is that it's a damn good thing Nicole buried Dolls' mug with him; she couldn't stand to see someone else drinking out of it.
The misery isn't outweighing the anger in her voice, but it's there, swelling behind every word, filling her eyes and flushing in her cheeks. "Did you even know him? Do you have the foggiest fucking idea of whose boots you're trying to fill?"
Some questions didn't need answers. There was nothing to gain from rising to the bait, to telling her why it didn't matter if Black Badge gave a damn or not. No answer he could give would really answer he thought she had. Why didn't they care about Dolls? Why didn't someone, anyone? She was looking for and had, apparently found who she wanted to place that blame with.
But so long as she allowed for any delineation between him as a man and the badge he wore, Raylan was confident he could find a way around those ugly truths of her life, towards something that served their goal more definitively. Her grief was good, in its own way - she'd fight like hell because of it.
His dark eyes stay steady on hers and lets the words ring around them for a long moment before he answers, calm and sure and back to that reassuring tone.
"No. Cause I know the file I got ain't a fraction of the man it belongs to. Maybe that's somethin' else you can help me fix when we got some down time. But I got a lead on a lost little girl with a whole bunch of dead cows across the families land and I could use your knowledge of the area. Of it's problems, hot spots, people that ain't from around here."
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He might not know that the growl he's listening to is the Earp's truck specifically yet, but it was loud, it was out front and it sounded too much like home for his comfort. He only turns around expectantly when he hears the footsteps, and watches Wynonna spot him, process him, and reject his everything inside a few heartbeats.
"Not one for hospitality, is she."
The Sheriff goes to open his mouth, to answer either Raylan or Wynonna, but Raylan lifts a hand and shakes his head as he heads for the door, stopping only to set his coffee on the desk Randy was sitting in front of.
"Let me take a shot at it." He could see the relief and amusement on the Sheriff's face. Clearly, Randy knew that it wasn't going to go as well as Raylan hoped, no matter what he did. In truth, he did too but that wasn't going to stop him from trying. You miss all the shots you don't take and he did understand that this was a sensitive situation. Raylan walks out into the hall after her and calls a "Ms. Earp?" as his long legs start covering distance. A too reasonable tone, polite, but one underlaced with twenty years of assumed authority. She was free to ignore it.
That didn't mean she'd escape it. He fully intended to follow after her until she stopped or she drove away, and even that wouldn't deter him.
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She's never been good at standing her ground when she could be pushing in, and she comes back down the hall at a faster clip than when she left, blue-grey eyes snapping, the line of her jaw tight. "You need to pack up and get out. The last thing we need is some Black Badge dick showing up thinking he can call the shots. Been there, done that, got the off-brand knock-off t-shirt."
Welcome to 'team shut up and do what he says, she'd told Waverly, back at the beginning, and it hits all over again like a fist landing abruptly in her gut. Black Badge got Dolls killed. They can fuck themselves sideways with all their supernatural totems; they can be demon chow, for all she cares. She glares up at the man, tall and lanky and annoyingly mild.
"Don't follow me."
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"We need to talk," he says with a slight smile of politeness once she finishes, continuing with a gesture of his long fingers. "And it ain't gotta be here, and it ain't gotta be now, but we need to talk either way. I'm afraid I can't promise to not follow you - and I think you know why."
He had to be clear about Dolls, about where Black Badge stood with a death of one of its men and where they all stood against the fight on Demons and dark atrocities making its way into their world to wreck havoc on innocent people.
"Our fight ain't done here, Ms Earp. I think you know that better than anyone."
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A few more steps is all it takes, and she's inches from him now, glaring up into his face, so angry that it never crosses her mind that he might see more than her anger, that he might see the heartbreak that's fueling it, desperate and desolate. She's not even thirty yet, but any youth in her eyes is dark and wounded and flashing with pain. "Let me tell you what I know, Marshal. I know this fight isn't over. And I know it's my fight, not yours."
She stares up at him, furious as a summer storm. "I didn't ask for Black Badge to send you. I don't want anything from them, and I don't want anything from you. I think you should get the hell out of here before you become the next costly mistake for them."
But even as she rages at him, she knows: there's no getting rid of him. If he goes, another one will come. Black Badge doesn't give a shit about Purgatory, or Dolls, or her, but the'll keep coming anyway.
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He hoped she had someone that might give her what she needed. But Raylan Givens had seen a lotta people angry, a lotta women furious in their righteousness and correctness about the way the would should be, to let her lash against him with all the edge her voice could muster.
He could shoulder that.
"I know what I signed up for." The statement was short and firm, not unkind but in no way bending to the winds of her anger as he met her gaze with only slightly wider eyes; the unmovable mountain. There was no part about it that he didn't mean. Death was always going to come to them. One way or the other.
"And so did Dolls. This is our fight. Not just yours and not just Black Badges. It ain't about either of us; it's about them. Everyone else who doesn't know this shit exists, everyone else who's got a bit of peace we're never gonna know."
It was ugly and might be taken as a jabbing statement, the kind of verbal slap that someone might use to calm down someone who was freaking out - hell, he wouldn't be surprised if he got hit for it, she looked like the type - but it was the softest hard truth they had on hand. He softens himself a little, edges rounding over to something that most people would find more reassuring.
"It's a fight none of us should be takin' on alone if we hope to stay on top of it."
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She can't help it; the memories come unbidden. Dolls, smiling at her from the hillside above the Homestead. Dolls, curled at her back in her bed, promising she isn't alone. Dolls, lying still and cold on the frozen earth. "Demons didn't kill Dolls. Black Badge did. And they'll kill you, too, if they fucking feel like it."
The worst part of this all is that— he's right. And Dolls might have said the same thing, once upon a time, before he looked at her at that party, something soft and undefinable in his eyes, and said screw 'em, I need you. She misses him like she'd miss her ribs, or her lungs. Everything feels wrong, everything hurts, everything is so much harder without him.
Which is why this new Marshal, Givens, isn't wrong. She can't do this alone. She can't do it without Black Badge. She already knows that when she turns around again, he'll be coming right along with her to the office. All she can think is that it's a damn good thing Nicole buried Dolls' mug with him; she couldn't stand to see someone else drinking out of it.
The misery isn't outweighing the anger in her voice, but it's there, swelling behind every word, filling her eyes and flushing in her cheeks. "Did you even know him? Do you have the foggiest fucking idea of whose boots you're trying to fill?"
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But so long as she allowed for any delineation between him as a man and the badge he wore, Raylan was confident he could find a way around those ugly truths of her life, towards something that served their goal more definitively. Her grief was good, in its own way - she'd fight like hell because of it.
His dark eyes stay steady on hers and lets the words ring around them for a long moment before he answers, calm and sure and back to that reassuring tone.
"No. Cause I know the file I got ain't a fraction of the man it belongs to. Maybe that's somethin' else you can help me fix when we got some down time. But I got a lead on a lost little girl with a whole bunch of dead cows across the families land and I could use your knowledge of the area. Of it's problems, hot spots, people that ain't from around here."